ericius revisited

An Afterthought =)

2007-10-12T01:14:00.001-07:00

Be that as it may, this is my blog after all and i can do whatever i please. Nevertheless, i implore for gentle criticisms, if ever there'll be one. I would prefer positive ones although I could settle for less, rather than not having one at all . .

Hahaha.. nobody reads my blog anyways . . . =) Who am I fooling?

I admit, at times I'm a total whacko! I'm crazily happy about it. I affirm and accept myself ~ of who I am, what I"ve become and how I am in any given situation.

How it all started..

2007-10-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

Words just started overflowing soon as I sat in front of my computer. It eventually ended up as short poems. It happened right after reading the article about stargazing (please see link below). I felt something stirred inside me and did an impromptu and I'm happy. And because of that, I feel much lighter now.

I never wrote a complete poem before. And now that I've done two poems in a row, in one seating, please bear with me ~ of how naive and however simple it may sound to you. Those were my feelings and how I felt then and I just wanted to let it all out. Indulge me, as I rarely talk about my feelings.

Just a few mortals in the world knew how I love the moon. Another secret, every full moon under its ray of white light in the darkness of the night, I bask under her.. unless I'm not scared (oh, but that's another story, another blog to tell next time).

Oh and today's Ramadan, a public holiday in the Philippines.

Before I sign off for the day, Advance Happy Halloween to everyone! ^_^

http://stargazing.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_night_sky_for_october_2007

Full Moon

2007-10-12T00:43:00.000-07:00

i gaze towards the heavens
to glimpse the moon in bloom
wishing for something i couldn't have
but that's not what my heart wants
i know, it's been so long
she's my twin, a bond too strong
the light revives my soul
silence that keeps me whole
you give me strength i never knew i had
and assures the doubts at bay
at last, i found my yearning for serenity
as i seek delight in your eternity.

~ jennie

Stargazing

2007-10-11T22:25:00.001-07:00

deep in the stillness
my head swirls
i find comfort in the blackness
and solace in its silence
the scent of fresh air reverbates
and eases the fire that battles within
stars gather to whisper in my ears
to console me to face my fears
trees dance in the distance
to appease the troubles within
but knowing the moon, like an owl staring
will always be there watching over me.

~ jennie

flavor of life

2007-03-13T05:14:00.001-07:00

I love this song. It's from hana yori dango, season 2.

It's heart-wrenching. Even a person with a cold heart would be moved to tears, i swear.

It makes you ponder on shakespeare's words - " It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all " . . .

Flavor of Life
Lyrics & Music: Utada Hikaru

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
jirettai no nan notte? baby~

arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
jinsei suteta mon janai tte

doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to “uun. nandemo nai”
sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
“aishiteru yo” yori mo “daisuki” no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
“arigatou” to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

ENGLISH

When I hear you say “thank you”
My heart hurts for some reason
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get
undone even after the break up
The faintly burning pain

The flavor of life,
The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers in uncertain terms
The un-riped fruit dreams about the day of harvest

Not being able to move forward
Those hands are desperate baby~

When I hear you say “thank you”
My heart hurts for some reason
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get
undone even after the break up
The faintly burning pain

The flavor of life,
The flavor of life

Words that seduce with sweetness, boring talk
I have no interest in them

Though things aren’t going smoothly at the moment
I haven’t given up on my life yet~

When asked “What happened?”
I answer “Nothing much”
The disappearance of laughter
after a break up isn’t like me

Whenever I wish to believe in you as I want
My heart hurts for some reason
Liking something else more than
something you love isn’t like you

(The flavor of life)

When I miss the person who is
fainting away in my memory
I want to be more openly cheerful
about the white snow piling up

The future that is smoother
and more warmer than diamond
I want to embrace it even with
the limited time I want to be with you

When I hear you say “thank you”
My heart hurts for some reason
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get
undone even after the break up
The faintly burning pain

The flavor of life,
The flavor of life

emotional quotient

2007-03-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Seriously though, I took the EQ test twice already and it came out with exactly the same results - 153! Am definitely a weirdo.. go figure!

metal kinks in my teeth

2007-02-26T17:44:00.000-08:00

Finally! After donning orthodontic braces for oh-so-many years, Doc T (my dentist) finally decided it's time to take it off. Yay, i feel so free, well my teeth are! Being literally imprisoned by these atrocious little square metal kinks, who wouldn't feel that way. Misses gummy & teeth had been tortured, mauled and worst, labelled & taunted as "hardcore metal smile," Uggh! Had been thru hell and back but don't fret, i'm still breathing except for some scars. ^_^

The next step, as I was told by Doc T, was retention, hence the need for "retainers" on my upper and lower teeth. Retainers act as my teeth's column to hold my teeth until my bone, gums, and muscles adapt to its new teeth positions, otherwise my teeth may move toward their original positions. Now, i wouldn't want that to happen, right? Hmnn, this looks easy, retainers seem bearable compare to braces. Doc T got a clay to mold my upper and lower teeth so they can make custom made retainers that will fit my teeth. I was asked to come back after 2 days. Yes indeed, I shall return.

come out come out wherever you are...

2006-08-09T02:33:00.000-07:00

it's full moon! time to brew my stew....

.. just kidding ^_^

cbox!

2006-06-13T03:06:00.000-07:00

yep! it's a tag-board. it has that quintessential look, simple yet classy, not too over the edge but easy on the eyes. i find it better compare to other popular tag-message boards that i always see in other blogsites. i hope you like it too, i just feel like sharing.

why not give it a try, send me a message, i won't mind :)

the Omen: 666

2006-06-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

It's no longer 666 as the mark of the beast or coming of the anti-christ.

They recently found an ancient greek manuscript from the Book of Revelation, it says that 616 is the real number or mark of the beast.

What a bummer, 616 is not so ominous as 666! But who are we to dispute such findings.

Curious where I got the info? Here it is folks, enjoy reading - http://www.aymnetwork.com/node/1011

sartorial or grudge look ???

2006-06-03T05:49:00.000-07:00

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit
You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe
For you style is looking like a million bucks...
And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

What's Your Date Fashion Style?

I believe in sartorial elegance. I admit, I am enslaved by the dictates of the fashion world. I am after all a girl, need I say more? :-)

Your Winter Look is Fashionable

You're the type of girl with a dozen coats and scarves, even if you hardly wear them

What's Your Winter Look?

Teatro

2006-06-01T21:44:00.000-07:00

I love theater! I've been watching theater plays at our local Repertory since college - it was then at Insular, afterwhich they transferred at the 5th floor of Edsa Shangrila and now at RCBC Makati. When we (my siblings and I) had our vacation in US & Europe, we watched Les Miserables in Broadway and Miss Saigon in London. The feeling was always good, wonderful, it's like walking in the clouds and you just appreciate the classic story and the show. I would sometimes be teary-eyed, happy, sad or just be plain overwhelmed with the performance and the showmanship. There's always that big emotion everytime I watch one which i honestly love to feel.

When I heard that my older sister enrolled her two daughters at Trumpets this summer, I was ecstatic! Wow, here are now my nieces, having their first taste of musical theater acting. Brewing with excitement and joy, I just can't wait for their final act.. their graduation play.

They had their first debut this morning at the Cultural Center of the Philippines (CCP) Kids Theater. We arrived, well, almost on time, but nevertheless we arrived unscathed. The beauties, as i fondly call them, played the character role of "munchkins". . . so cute. They said their lines pretty well, danced merrily and seemed to really getting the hang of theater musical-slash-play acting.

There was a scene where Sophia was too shy to dance that her older sister Isabelle went behind her baby sister and gently nudged her to dance. But because Sophia was too shy, Ate Isabelle gently hold Sophia's arm up and moved it sideways. . . sweet! I couldn't help but be touched by such gesture (*teary-eyed*). That's Isabelle, the ever protective and supportive older sister ~ that's what siblings are for, to support and be there for whoever's in need. My 2-year old nephew Miguel excitedly watched the "ATES" (I know it's funny but that's how he calls them.. ha3x). . . And in a boy's little booming voice, the words "ATE", "PIA", and "BELLE" reverberated inside the auditorium. When I turned around to look at Miguel, he whispered, "the ATES" and warmly smiled at me. I smiled back. He was just as excited and proud as we all were. We all enjoyed the musical play and laughed with the funny acts. Everybody inside the auditorium was brimming with pride and joy that their kids, 'apo' (granchild), nieces or nephews, cousins, were doing magnificient singing and acting. There were a lot of blunders, but for us adults, those actions were just endearing and utterly adorable so we just laughed with them and not at them. The Trumpets' teachers really know how to teach enjoyable musical play acting to kids. Truly a job well done. Congratulations, my little beauties.

An excerpt from "The Wiz" - i'll load it soon . .

bato encantada

2005-10-29T22:56:00.000-07:00

Caught your attention, didn't I? Lest you mistook my title as mystical or supernatural, i'm obliged to clarify that it is far from anything supernatural. It's been a month, mind you, and I'm going out of my mind. I'm currently in my mother's hometown. People here love to eat and obviously I've gained a couple of pounds just by attending invitations here and there. Have mercy!

Incidentally, why "bato encantada"? It certainly is a headliner. Aside from the fact IT being mysterious.. hehehe. Well, it aptly describes our beach property in Guimaras and we're here to fix a quandary and troubleshoot a sticky situation a propos our resort.

c'est la vie

2005-09-03T19:25:00.000-07:00

Swamped with pro-bono work for several years, I've decided to end it and be part of the rat race. My mantra nowadays has been 'hunt hunt hunt'. Things has not been the same since our source of bread 'n butter had been affected by the financial crisis. But that's life, c'est la vie, as they always say. Do I just accept things as they are.. hell no! With the chaos going on and the imposition of E-vat in consumer goods alongside with the previous oil price hike, what can a mere human being do but to look for means to survive otherwise we'll die of hunger :(

a taste of vintage

2005-06-10T21:03:00.000-07:00

Somebody once told me I'm an 'old soul.' Funny, since I do fancy old vintage stuff ..(ehehehe .. nahahalatang matanda na!) Although, to be honest, I find myself sort of a "manang."

Life is like an old wooden box (in our country, we call it 'baul'). In a manner of speaking, this is where we keep those that we treasure and that has left a memorable mark in our lives - an old photo-album or a little token that has significant value.

Just one life. Yet man has this infinite, seemingly endless pursuit to find happiness in worldly stuff as proof of his importance. Been there, done that. I've also been down in those tracks and searched for meanings in those material things. But I've learned one important thing - giving a part of yourself to your family and your friends. Our experiences, may it be good or bad, mold us to be a better person. And mind you, it will definitely leave a mark. But those marks give us character and a uniqueness in identity that differentiate us from others. We experience, we learn then we share and in the end, we touch lives. We are, after all meant to live, to evolve spiritually and be a better entity. I know, you might be wondering the relevance of this to me being an old soul - nothing really, It's just that our vast interaction with the world gives character to our soul and birth to wisdom. Bottom line, we all are old souls and have tremendous capacity to love, to feel, but most of all, to learn.

We all have crates of boxes, so many fascinating stories to tell. My advise, find a caring true person, someone who'll listen to you (not just hear), might be nonsensical for others but it's noteworthy to you, because that is what life is all about.

"What is essential is invisible to the eye, it is only the heart that knows rightly" - The Prince

gut morgen

2005-03-07T05:38:00.000-08:00

what a fine morning! it is truly a wonder how beautiful and serene watching the sun rises at 5:35 am .. a wisp of fresh morning air stirring a wonderful feeling of hope that it is a new day to start all over again.

what the!.... undisputably a simple way to rouse myself in doing my usual chore.. gotta get going, only if i could just find my jogging suit. i guess, i have a justifiable reason to postpone my early jogging ritual in our village. and besides, there's another new day tomorrow to look forward to.