An Afterthought =)

Be that as it may, this is my blog after all and i can do whatever i please. Nevertheless, i implore for gentle criticisms, if ever there'll be one. I would prefer positive ones although I could settle for less, rather than not having one at all . .

Hahaha.. nobody reads my blog anyways . . . =) Who am I fooling?

I admit, at times I'm a total whacko! I'm crazily happy about it. I affirm and accept myself ~ of who I am, what I"ve become and how I am in any given situation.

How it all started..

Words just started overflowing soon as I sat in front of my computer. It eventually ended up as short poems. It happened right after reading the article about stargazing (please see link below). I felt something stirred inside me and did an impromptu and I'm happy. And because of that, I feel much lighter now.

I never wrote a complete poem before. And now that I've done two poems in a row, in one seating, please bear with me ~ of how naive and however simple it may sound to you. Those were my feelings and how I felt then and I just wanted to let it all out. Indulge me, as I rarely talk about my feelings.

Just a few mortals in the world knew how I love the moon. Another secret, every full moon under its ray of white light in the darkness of the night, I bask under her.. unless I'm not scared (oh, but that's another story, another blog to tell next time).


Oh and today's Ramadan, a public holiday in the Philippines.

Before I sign off for the day, Advance Happy Halloween to everyone! ^_^


http://stargazing.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_night_sky_for_october_2007

Full Moon

i gaze towards the heavens
to glimpse the moon in bloom
wishing for something i couldn't have
but that's not what my heart wants
i know, it's been so long
she's my twin, a bond too strong
the light revives my soul
silence that keeps me whole
you give me strength i never knew i had
and assures the doubts at bay
at last, i found my yearning for serenity
as i seek delight in your eternity.

~ jennie

Stargazing

deep in the stillness
my head swirls
i find comfort in the blackness
and solace in its silence
the scent of fresh air reverbates
and eases the fire that battles within
stars gather to whisper in my ears
to console me to face my fears
trees dance in the distance
to appease the troubles within
but knowing the moon, like an owl staring
will always be there watching over me.

~ jennie

flavor of life

I love this song. It's from hana yori dango, season 2.

It's heart-wrenching. Even a person with a cold heart would be moved to tears, i swear.

It makes you ponder on shakespeare's words - " It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all " . . .


Flavor of Life
Lyrics & Music: Utada Hikaru

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
jirettai no nan notte? baby~

arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
jinsei suteta mon janai tte

doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to “uun. nandemo nai”
sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
“aishiteru yo” yori mo “daisuki” no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
“arigatou” to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

ENGLISH

When I hear you say “thank you”
My heart hurts for some reason
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get
undone even after the break up
The faintly burning pain

The flavor of life,
The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers in uncertain terms
The un-riped fruit dreams about the day of harvest

Not being able to move forward
Those hands are desperate baby~

When I hear you say “thank you”
My heart hurts for some reason
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get
undone even after the break up
The faintly burning pain

The flavor of life,
The flavor of life

Words that seduce with sweetness, boring talk
I have no interest in them

Though things aren’t going smoothly at the moment
I haven’t given up on my life yet~

When asked “What happened?”
I answer “Nothing much”
The disappearance of laughter
after a break up isn’t like me

Whenever I wish to believe in you as I want
My heart hurts for some reason
Liking something else more than
something you love isn’t like you

(The flavor of life)

When I miss the person who is
fainting away in my memory
I want to be more openly cheerful
about the white snow piling up

The future that is smoother
and more warmer than diamond
I want to embrace it even with
the limited time I want to be with you

When I hear you say “thank you”
My heart hurts for some reason
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get
undone even after the break up
The faintly burning pain

The flavor of life,
The flavor of life

emotional quotient

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Seriously though, I took the EQ test twice already and it came out with exactly the same results - 153! Am definitely a weirdo.. go figure!

metal kinks in my teeth

Finally! After donning orthodontic braces for oh-so-many years, Doc T (my dentist) finally decided it's time to take it off. Yay, i feel so free, well my teeth are! Being literally imprisoned by these atrocious little square metal kinks, who wouldn't feel that way. Misses gummy & teeth had been tortured, mauled and worst, labelled & taunted as "hardcore metal smile," Uggh! Had been thru hell and back but don't fret, i'm still breathing except for some scars. ^_^

The next step, as I was told by Doc T, was retention, hence the need for "retainers" on my upper and lower teeth. Retainers act as my teeth's column to hold my teeth until my bone, gums, and muscles adapt to its new teeth positions, otherwise my teeth may move toward their original positions. Now, i wouldn't want that to happen, right? Hmnn, this looks easy, retainers seem bearable compare to braces. Doc T got a clay to mold my upper and lower teeth so they can make custom made retainers that will fit my teeth. I was asked to come back after 2 days. Yes indeed, I shall return.

come out come out wherever you are...

it's full moon! time to brew my stew....

.. just kidding ^_^

cbox!

yep! it's a tag-board. it has that quintessential look, simple yet classy, not too over the edge but easy on the eyes. i find it better compare to other popular tag-message boards that i always see in other blogsites. i hope you like it too, i just feel like sharing.

why not give it a try, send me a message, i won't mind :)